I know I have mentioned to some readers of this blog how frustrating this online I am taking is. It has officially reached a new level of frustration....If I am in tears over an assignment, I would say that it is too hard. Actually, let me rephrase. The assignment itself is not hard. Write a lesson plan....I do that every day. Its nothing like my lesson plans....way too complicated and teachers never write or use this detailed of plans, but I get that she wants us to "think" it completely through. That's fine. But we have to use Wikispace to display our work. I can only handle so much "new technology" at a time. I have figured out this "blog" thing, why can't we just keep using that??? Why torture me with a wiki that isn't even our Oncourse wiki??? I could do that. Maybe. I just hate being made to feel stupid and to the point of tears. My anxiety attacks have lessened quite a bit since leaving my previous school. So far this year has been great....however, this online class is killing me. I finally get something mastered and then let's just throw me for a loop. Part of this is my own fault. I am a perfectionist and I don't like not knowing something. I don't do this well. The over achiever in me is screaming and scared that I may fail. Will I? Ofcourse not, that has never been an option or even allowed to be in my vocabulary throughout my life. I have 3 weeks to figure this thing out. Can I just write in Word and copy and paste to this Wiki thing? I don't want to have to design or create a website which is what I am feeling like this thing is. Ofcourse it would be easier to just write the thing in word and post it in Oncourse in a forum. Everyone would still be able to read it and comment on it which is what we have to do with this Wiki thing.
UUUUGGGGG!!!!!!! I don't know which is harder: being the newbie in Step Areobics this morning or figuring out this Wiki thing. I am feeling like a fish out of water in both.